A Million Little Pieces

It's not that I haven't had things going on or emotions to express recently, it's just that I have to consider my audience and my self-imposed rules of conduct. I won't lie, I'm sick of the high road. The low road would be so much easier and satisfying, but I just can't bring myself to do it.
So, this is going to be most complex, puzzling post ever but I do need to just express some things out loud. Being defriended on facebook sucks. It probably should upset me more than it pisses me off though, so that in itself is a reflection of my feelings towards that person.
It is really hard to stop mothering people when I've spent my entire life mothering one person after another. I can see the train wreck ahead for some people in my life, but I have to step back and let them see the light head on for themselves instead of swooping in to deflect it. You can't save someone from themselves and you actually do them a great disservice by trying to do so.
I've been given permission to be as crazy as I want for the next 6 months, but I'm more confused than anything right now. When your life is an open meadow it's hard to pick a path through the grass. Do I even want to ever get remarried?
Should I be a recluse for a while to let myself "heal" and self-reflect or do I go seize the day? If I seize the day am I just looking for temporary hiding places from being alone with myself? Which way is the right way? It feels more natural to me to surround myself with people and activities, but then I wonder if I'm doing it just to avoid loneliness. 
I watched a movie last night and in a scene a therapist gave out some one size fits all advice: Decide what it is you want and learn how to ask for it. That really in a nutshell is my problem. I have this blank canvas and I'm lost among all the possibilities to the point where I'm standing still frozen in indecision. I know the answer is to go with my heart, but my head keeps getting in the way. I've always been a logical person over emotional so maybe by going "crazy" I will just let my emotions rule the day for the next few months. My head is already throwing tons of objections out to this, but I'll be damned if it doesn't feel natural and right in my heart. Time for Daz to learn how to be impulsive.